I’m crazy about someone I can’t have.
To be more specific.. Had.
I have this problem where I let my emotions consume me, and sometimes it scares people. I chased off the one person I never thought I could chase off. I knew this guy since the middle of August. When he admitted to having a crush on me, I was very confused, and scared. But in a good way. Without a doubt, I liked him too. And I got so caught up in having him feel the same I didn’t see the bigger picture. To this day, I regret taking a step back. I regret saying nothing when he tried to talk to me after ending things with me. You know that feeling where you can’t say anything because you know you’ll burst into tears. You know the feeling where one song can turn your smile upside down. You know how hard it is to never get the straight answer you deserve, and get constantly reminded of your feelings no amount of laughter can fix. That’s how I feel. I may not be in love with him, but he was the one thing I looked forward to. Am I mad at him? No. But at myself, yes. I let him slip through my fingers. Little did I know I was the one making him lose his balance. Is it normal for someone to remain in your mind after months have past? My mind runs in so many directions. So if you ever have someone special, don’t push them too far. Take your time. Love has no time limit, I wouldn’t know.. But take it from me. Anything is better than knowing you’ll be ignored.